JANUARY 30.
The first month of 2012 is ending real soon. I’ve got to keep up with the times! Can’t wait for vday, #foreveralone’s gna trend in twitter yay ^^
Stuck on essay forever.
I’m a boring girl in a boring worlddddddddddd
the one that got away -
Have been losing focus ever since I left home. I’ve missed my train station two times in a day; was supposed to alight at bras basah but finding myself end up at dhoby ghuat; was supposed to alight at bedok but ended up staring at a station with double platform. I’ve never felt so lost, so devoid of directions before. I couldn’t reach my heart, I don’t understand myself, all I see is uncertainty in the future. God knows where my legs garnered all the energy from, but I dashed all the way home from mrt station. Without stopping. Tears fled just like the one that got away. I was numb from all the pain.
Things are always easier said than done. I wish I could forget you. But I still want to be the one for you. I wish I had the courage to leave you; I wish I had the courage to accept the truth; I wish I had the courage to fall deeply again. I have none. Even though I may appear to be happy with the reality now, deep inside my heart, I know that I hadn’t accepted the truth, not even a slightest bit.
I don’t want to be who we are right now.
Please, God, help me get through this phase as fast as possible. I need to walk away from the things that aren’t meant for me.
“In another life,
I would make you stay.
So I won’t have to say you were the one that got away /”
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the moment when you just feel like sitting there on the chair, staring blankly into space, wishing you could rot and die at that spot. i hate it when everything crashes and you just stop in time. thoughts frozen. with nothing but hopelessness in mind. it’s like a parasite residing in my brain, slowly leeching on my optimism and healthy thoughts, leaving me with nothing but painful residues of my memory. I dread to think that the year is ending. I dread to say goodbye to you. I wished we never knew each other. I wished I was stronger. I wished I had never gave into you. I wished I was never so soft-hearted. I wished. You might say, well, the coming year will definitely be a better one, but these parasites in my head will never vanish. They either multiply, or remain stagnant and dormant. Who says so? We are only hurt if we allow ourselves to be. I am so controversial. No, I am not hurt. I am just feeling a tad bit lonely. And my raging hormones are messing my thoughts up further. I should sleep. Tomorrow will be a better day. Cheers.
We’ve lost it all.
I feel like my world’s been infected.
And somehow you’ve left me neglected.
We’ve found our lives been changed.
We lost ourselves.
Raining on the outside, wrecked up on the inside
The weekend has been a thrilling yet harrowing one. I didn’t look forward to meeting you; I wasn’t prepared to see that nonchalant face of yours. Time may heal, as the old adage may suggest, but it can never recover how things used to be at the very beginning.
We were young and ignorant; we made impetuous decisions; we fell in love in the winter breeze; we had fun in the summer. But who knew, it all ended so fast, and it caught us off guard. All the memories we’ve shared faded and drifted away with the autumn winds. The situation I had foreseen, the predicament I had expected, came true. I was solaced with understanding friends, tea and cookies, I wished for the best for you, I moved on. But there will always be that gulp down the throat or shiver down the spine when I see your face again; I can’t help it but to cringe in fear. The memories flashed by me instantly, leaving me haunted and drowned in my own sorrows of the past. Yet, those apathetic eyes of yours didn’t care less.
How; how did you manage to forget everything? How can you talk like nothing happened at all? Is it so easy to restart your life just like that? So I am just another stranger, another new friend to you?
History has never left us; it never will. Every incident you encounter, will be a reenactment of a past event, be it related directly or obliquely. You can never escape it.
Meet me at electric chapel xoxo
I succeeded . For 24 hours . #proudofmyself
I will make sure I succeed this time round. Bye bye fatty acids and glycerol.
Its 15 December, 10 more days till the jolly-est day of the year arrives.
And till then,
I’ll be a high-flyer.
I won’t fall out of love.
Small world, small Singapore
The world is so small.
Everyone’s fighting for the same thing.
That one thing.
When we have similar goals, our paths meet. But instead of merging, we paved a new pathway by ourselves instead. We will eventually be in this world alone.
Attended sci focus for past 2 days… It was interesting yet boring z_z ESP when you don’t understand the accents of the lecturers LOL. Cellular control turned out to be ‘sailor con-cuò’ ?!?! Epic ttm. And made a new friend :)
Gna have to stone for hours now. Nails oh nails why won’t you dry up faster T.T
